Stretching

My theme for the year has been doing things that are uncomfortable. All things that I try to talk myself out of doing, because of fear, I do. I may do it kicking and screaming, but I do it anyway.

Why in the world would I do this on purpose?

I do it to grow. I am on a self discovery mission this year and I am all in!

I am healing my body and soul. I am in full awareness that this is the time to fully step in, emerge and transform.

Last summer, Spirit told me to sell my home. SO, I put it on the market. I talked to my boyfriend and WE and his children were going to find something bigger and more comfortable for all of us.

By October I had found myself leaving my 7 year relationship with him. Our relationship had been under stress for a couple of years and it seemed we were running around in circles.

I knew staying, for the time being, was not in my best interest. I knew I needed to leave to find myself.

Around the same time, I found myself in northern Utah to have some time with my daughter in Salt Lake City.

My first stop was at a friends place for some appointments in healing energy.

As I drove in to the beautiful valley, I heard the words, “you are home”.

I was born pretty close to where I was, but I couldn’t understand the message.

Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would move away from St. George; even if it was to be closer to my daughter!

Northern Utah winters have snow and are cold, which I am not accustomed to! Northern Utah is busy and city like, which has NEVER been something I’ve liked. Why the hell would I move up there?!

Over the coming days after that experience, I started to meditate and pray on the matter.

Was I supposed to move there?

Why?

How?

The answer to go came in strong and hard, time after time, and then the trust started to fill in the gaps that my logical mind couldn’t comprehend.

By December my long term relationships was over and by February I closed on the sale of my home.

At the same time, I ended my 5 year employment as a bookkeeper, to step fully into my Rapid eye and coaching business.

March Covid hit.

I asked again if I was still supposed to move to northern Utah. The answer was yes.

In April I moved.

June I found myself heading to Oregon for a 8 day leadership training and immediately following, another training to enhance my new Reiki attunement that was accompanying my Rapid eye practice.

I did things unimaginable that week and I am in awe of the experiences that will forever be a part of who I am now and who I am becoming.

At the beginning of this month I had 3 more new opportunities present in my life that fit the bill of discomfort, which equals growth!

After prayer and meditation on them, I knew they were for me to work into my life.

AND I DID NOT WANT TO!

AND, I AM DOING THEM ANYWAY!

Every time I stretch into the fear and discomfort, I grow, and I will never be the same.

Some days the pain from all the changes and the losses of walking away from my relationship and my “life” back home is all consuming!

Some days I question my choices.

Some days are just plain hard….AND I do them anyway.

A few days ago, I had the opportunity to spend a full day with my daughter.

We both acknowledged all this year has been, not just in the collective (as it has!) but for us personally.

Almost at the exact same time, we expressed how different we are now, than even just a few short weeks ago, let alone the beginning of the year.

We feel like we are on a fast track to change and transformation and WE ARE!

Today I am embarking on yet another opportunity for growth and change, but that is for another post!

My point is this. If you want to change and grow in ANY facet of your life, you have to push through some things that may not feel very good.

It is part of the process.

Practice the new changes you are implementing over and over and you will get skilled and you will become more confident, I promise.

When we first started to walk, we didn’t run.

We fell down…a lot!

And we got back up even when it hurt.

I mean this when I say, “if I can do it, you can do it”.

YOU GOT THIS!

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